Call of Destiny

By Suzanne Marie Punch

Nobody ever thinks about why women give their children up for adoption. I never did, until I, myself, had to give my one and only son up for adoption. It was the hardest decision I had ever had to make. It broke my heart so very much.
I had always wanted a boy. I have two girls, so a boy was a dream. I did not need anymore kids. And I was not trying to have anymore kids. I ended up pregnant by a man who had planned on not having any kids. I knew it was going to be a nightmare, but I stuck with the pregnancy to try and maybe have a better outcome than I knew would happen.
Physically and mentally abused by my sons father, I turned to drugs, methamphetamine. I abused it to the max level and ended up in the psych hospital. I did not know how I had gotten that and I did not know why I was there. With no family to take my son, I had no choice but to place him with child protective services. My girls were already with their fathers.
I thought child protective services would be the best thing for me and my son. I thought that I could get myself together, since I had no job, no home, and a two month old infant to care for by myself. They would helped get a home and the proper things needed to care for an infant. It seemed like God stepped in and answered my prayers. God answered my prayers for my son to have everything he needed, but none of it included his biological mother and father.
My oldest…