For Women Who Knew Better

By Zaina Starr

I knew better says enough about my stupid actions I continuously seem to keep doing over and over. When am I going to ever learn. This man doesn’t care for me like I do him!

He’s verbally and physically abused me for almost two years now. He has made me shut everyone out of my life for him. He’s extremely jealous of every man. When all my attention is only on one man, him.

Everyone says that I’m too beautiful and smart to be going through this over and over like I have been. Deep down, I agree with them. But also at the same time, I’m so deeply in love with this one man.

He has no job, no car, and still lives with his family, which consits of his sister, her husband, and their three kids. He acts like he will never move out. Even though now we have a son together who needs him more than anyone.

I believed after our son was born that everything would change for the better. That is not at all what happened. Everything got worse. He beat me so badly I almost died. Our son got taken by child protective services due to both of us addicted to drugs. Life just is not fair sometimes.

We broke up for awhile because he was seeing someone else who definatly was not prettier than me. Which really messed my mentality up. Therefore, I actually started seeing someone else…