Our Heart's Most Desired

By Zaina Starr

What is your heart's desire? I really had to think about this question for awhile. Being majorly depressed, I go through phases where I don't even find myself enjoying the things I enjoy the most. It seems impossible to try to desire what I like to do during those times. All my body wants to do is sleep. An escape from reality and a time to play my future for the period soon to follow with wants and dreams. Along with that comes the motivation that I need to do so.
I would have to say my most desire would be to have my kids in my life like a normal mother. All three of them. It's been a struggle the last few years. Digging deeper into depression by not having them in my life. It's the most terrible thing that could have happened in my life. It breaks my heart that I'll never be who I am supposed to be. 
My second desire in life would be to have a home for my family. Can't succeed without a a home that you can't stress not being yours unexpectedly, like what has always happened for me. Then nowhere to go. Start all over from scratch too many times that you just dont care what happens anymore. You lose all feelings. There are none.
Another would be a car. Transportation keeps you in a job and helps you be able to get what you need without the stress of if your ride will show up or not. Having to cancel doctor appointments and all causes you not to be eligible as a patient. Then you are…