Past to Future

From my past to my future. Is that not what we could also call a timeline of a person’s life. That is what I am experiencing, as of right now. I sunk into the past and sprang to my future overnight.

That was breathtaking and exhausting, yet sporadic.

Dwelling and dealing from my fuck ups in my life, I became cold inside towards everyone around me. I wanted solitude and confinement from everyone, the world. I found myself wanting to be lonely. How could that be possible for anyone?

I learned to live in my past because that is all I thought of was my past. Reliving experiences. For what? A feeling that I have grown to explore too many times.

I changed everything in my life. I am now learning to never need anything from anyone. I enjoy myself.

Therefore, if there is not someone who enjoys me too, then, "I guess I’ll just marry my own damn self, then!"

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Suzanne Marie Punch, aka "Zaina Starr

I am a writer. I write poetry and articles on Medium. I strive to be the different one in the crowd. Follow me.