Trying and Trying For Failure

By Zaina Starr

It seems as though I keep trying and trying but all I ever run into is failure. I’ve been told I’m not a good writer. I’ve been told I’m not a good mother. And everyone who even tries to get close to me never has good intentions for me. They end up getting close to me for their own benefits and could care less what I’m losing to help them. Me helping them is not helping me. I’m trying my best to help someone and hurt no one, but it’s not helping me ever it just hurts my life even more.

I have anxiety every day so for me to be in the presence of just someone is a battle. That’s what people do not understand. I just want to hide somewhere and never speak to anyone ever again.

I finally bought a car and people are keeping it from me. Which is hurting me and my kids. There really are cruel people in the world. That is one lesson I’ll never forget. Fuck people.