What Women Want

By Zaina Starr

What do women want? I can not speak for all women. I am a woman and I can speak for myself. I do know what I want. It’s every man I’ve already had, I do not want. I didn’t chose them and they didn’t me. At thirty years old, here I am, single.

I am told by many, male and female, that I’m beautiful, and given compliments, all physical. A match for my world and attitude. I’ve connected to them but there’s always an obstacle that interferes either in my life or theirs, and the relationship never lasts. I’m always the blame. They are physically attracted but never are they mentally attracted to me.

I need someone who sees the bad in me and still wants me. I’ve always seen the bad in everyone and still accepted them. All if them are perfect to me at my best, but are always gone at my worst. Nobody has my back but me. Just one person to love me as I am. There’s not one for me.

Every relationship I always wonder when they are going to be tired of me. And every time it’s the same. People come and go, that’s life. I just tell myself that better days will come.

It always hurts to fall in love a little more than you should be. And yet I always do. I hate it when people compare me to others because it seems I’m one of a kind. I can’t find what I want.