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Why Am I The Problem
By Zaina Starr
Why am I a problem? Every relationship I have or have had has made me feel like a problem for their life. I have sat and thought day after day, over and over, why. And still I never get an answer. I don’t think I’ll ever get an answer.
I put my everything in all my relationships because I care about people and how they feel. I never want anyone to feel anything bad. Yet they all make me feel unwanted and unappreciated.
When I am unwanted and un appreciated, I run away. Removing myself is the solution. Why stay and be a problem for someone else that only causes me more sadness, depression and anxiety.
Relationships and people are killing my mind, body and soul. Taking the little bit of joy to keep on living I have left and tear me down to nothing and nobody. People are cruel. To think about how the people in your life that you want to keep happy should be the one you lay down beside every night or the one you talk to every day. Yeah those relationships fail for me because seems I’m not the only person they share this with.
Loyalty and true partnerships don’t exist anymore. I’m going to run away where nobody will have to see me again. Start my life over brand new. A brand new life, with brand new people and family. Some people who can love me like u I love them.
“Me...the problem”
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